My friends are all traumatized, and I am in no mood to be any comfort. I feel like I've just been getting more and more cranky by the day lately. At the same time I don't feel particularly stressed, I just don't feel happy like I normally do. I can't sleep well. I keep having these weird dreams about serial killers, professors, and hospitals...nothing restful. And I had to give up on Moot court, which I thought would be cool, but I just don't have time. I need a job too. I need a second reference. I want to go to the mall and shop for a suit this weekend, and just wander and shop frivilously. I think that might be relaxing. I plan to watch a movie just for fun. Yah. That will be good.

I have written 3 pages of my paper. They're the easy 3 pages, but at least it is starting to feel possible. Finishing will be relaxing because I'll finally have the time to do the other things I haven't been doing, like outline, write cover letters, and make my court visit. Uggh.

The guinea kids have a new home. I keep thinking I hear them in the room when I am sitting here, but then I see the empty spot where their cage used to be. They were so cute, but they have a much better home now. I think I might need a new pet though. Something more low maintanace...like a rock. Maybe I'mm go to Petco this weekend. I need somehting that I can transport easily, that doesn't make much noise, and that can handle many temperatures. And if it didn't have to be fed everyday that would be cool. Hmmm. A rock might be a good choice, actually. I could name it Rocky.

I need to meditate. I need to find my happy inner center. Yes. That's myy goal for the next week. Wish me luck.