Resolve

Last year on January 6th I started watching what I ate. After a few months I added exercise at the school gym. In September I joined a real gym and two months ago I added strength training and weights. On January 6th I weighed approximately 178 pounds, but who really knows because I forgot to weigh myself for a week or two. Today I weigh 150.5 pounds.

It has been a great year. I have plateaued a few times, but I am wearing a size I haven't worn since middle school. I am stronger, thinner, and more confident than I have been in a long, long time. But I have a long way to go. This year I plan on going the rest of the way, to whatever size and weight I'll be when I am finally thin. I will be strong. I will be able to run 3, 10 minute miles. I will have a hot glut-ham tie in and toned abs. I will look damn good on Halloween, and I will not pass out before I have a rockin' good time with my best friends, Chris and Stephanie.

I will be a better friend, a stronger me inside and out. I will meditate more and spend time with the saints. I will feel less guilty when I don't do what I think I should. I will be less passive aggressive and more direct, even when the potential consequences are terrifying to me. I will stand up for myself, but I will also let go more. What is, is. I will feel what I feel. I will want what I want. I will be happy no matter what happens.

Wish me luck... but I don't think I am going to need it.