Ugh.....Double ugh!
Why is it that when all hell breaks loose all I want to do is eat everything and anything I can get my hands on? Why is it that when I need to work out and get rid of my stress, I always forget my gym shirt? Why is it that even when is it that when I most need company I am the least pleasant person for my friends to be around? Why is it that even when I haven't eaten everything in sight and have worked out 3/5 days I still feel horrible and guilty for taking this horrible horrible day off?
UGH!
Friday, January 09, 2009
Thursday, January 08, 2009
Plateau's Suck!
I am more than a little bitter about the fact that I cannot get below 149. Grrrr. I am clearly going to have to try harder, but my mental reserves are low right now. I cannot give up though.
Eyes on the prize. This will be me in 12 months.
Eyes on the prize. This will be me in 12 months.
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Resolve
Last year on January 6th I started watching what I ate. After a few months I added exercise at the school gym. In September I joined a real gym and two months ago I added strength training and weights. On January 6th I weighed approximately 178 pounds, but who really knows because I forgot to weigh myself for a week or two. Today I weigh 150.5 pounds.
It has been a great year. I have plateaued a few times, but I am wearing a size I haven't worn since middle school. I am stronger, thinner, and more confident than I have been in a long, long time. But I have a long way to go. This year I plan on going the rest of the way, to whatever size and weight I'll be when I am finally thin. I will be strong. I will be able to run 3, 10 minute miles. I will have a hot glut-ham tie in and toned abs. I will look damn good on Halloween, and I will not pass out before I have a rockin' good time with my best friends, Chris and Stephanie.
I will be a better friend, a stronger me inside and out. I will meditate more and spend time with the saints. I will feel less guilty when I don't do what I think I should. I will be less passive aggressive and more direct, even when the potential consequences are terrifying to me. I will stand up for myself, but I will also let go more. What is, is. I will feel what I feel. I will want what I want. I will be happy no matter what happens.
Wish me luck... but I don't think I am going to need it.
It has been a great year. I have plateaued a few times, but I am wearing a size I haven't worn since middle school. I am stronger, thinner, and more confident than I have been in a long, long time. But I have a long way to go. This year I plan on going the rest of the way, to whatever size and weight I'll be when I am finally thin. I will be strong. I will be able to run 3, 10 minute miles. I will have a hot glut-ham tie in and toned abs. I will look damn good on Halloween, and I will not pass out before I have a rockin' good time with my best friends, Chris and Stephanie.
I will be a better friend, a stronger me inside and out. I will meditate more and spend time with the saints. I will feel less guilty when I don't do what I think I should. I will be less passive aggressive and more direct, even when the potential consequences are terrifying to me. I will stand up for myself, but I will also let go more. What is, is. I will feel what I feel. I will want what I want. I will be happy no matter what happens.
Wish me luck... but I don't think I am going to need it.
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