Aaaaaaah, Yeah.

I am right on schedule. I lost just over 3 pounds last week. If I stick to it and my modifications to the plan work, I will be back where I started by October 12th. Woot woot!

Checking In

I have one more day left in week one of my weight loss plan. I haven't weighed myself in 2 days, so I can't give you that update yet, but Im doing okay. I pretty much want to eat everything in sight, and I really, REALLY want a Sprinkles cupcake, but i'm still doing okay. The trick is not surviving these few weeks anyway. It's surviving all the weeks after. Next week I have to figure out what I am going to do for weeks 3 and 4, because I did not like week 3 last time. Maybe I'll do it the way they say just to see. It can't kill me.

I have passed up all sorts of delicious things, like the most amazing piece of pizza I have seen in a long time. I could definitely tell last night that I would've eaten a lot of bad things at my parents' if I hadn't had such a strict set of rules. I need to figure out how to deal better with this once I'm off the plan.

A Bad Idea, Take 2

Back in April I had a bad idea to drop 10 pounds in 3 weeks following a plan I found in one of my magazines. It was a crash diet, of course, but with healthy food. I was frustrated from being stuck at 147-150 lbs. Really frustrated. And thus began my downfall.

I did very well on the first two weeks of the plan. I lost about 7 points, almost a full size, and have some pictures to prove it. But then the third week was lame, and I quit, and then I REALLY quit. All the control, the motivation, the mental framework I had been living with for the prior 16 months was gone. I went on a trip and gained 5 pounds. Went on another trip and gained 5 more. I kept eating and eating. I felt compelled. I created plan after plan, reset my goals over and over, and then I finally gave in and bought some clothes in the next size up.

Today I'm right around 164, and I've been reigning myself in, but I'm discouraged. I have gained so much weight and losing it won't be nearly as easy. That's why I am liking the plan, even though it didn't work out so well last time. It's a way to get myself back into a size 10 quickly, and take control permanently. NO. It has to become my favorite word again. Nothing tastes as good as thin feels. Okay, thinner.

I am really excited about the once-dreaded 147-150 range.